Oooooccctttoobbeerrly!

Counting down to 2 days to the start of October, my favorite month! 


All thanks to my best friend, best buddy, best study partner! 


He is always there to remind me of my big day. I know it's gonna be awesome and i'm looking forward to it! I'm really grateful him. He is always there for me, no matter what happens.. 


It had been a tough time for the both of us for the past 2 weeks, but he never gives up on me. Always demonstrate patience, love and care to me. There were times that i wanted to give up, but he always teach me "keep on keeping on". i love him to bits! 


Recently, we were sharing about how much we've changed. 

I guess this is one of the oldest photo that we took together, and i remember it was during Valentine's Day! 


And now.....

 "For two are better than one." It's so true. During our journey, we tried to help each other "makeover" and i must say Dear is really a good "judge". He is always so encouraging in what i wear everyday. Whenever i tied up or pin my hair or do something different, he will always praise me. 


Right now, both of us are trying to save up for our future.. and at the same time, both of us need to slim down, we are watching very closely what we are eating. I seen a phrase very interesting: "We are what we eat". 
Both of us also need to take some time to do some exercise. Dear suggested that he will teach me basketball in the weekends. It's gonna be so funnn! 


Alright i got to go now. Will update soon! Ciao!

Savings

I was blog-walking and read a very convicting post on savings, building our barns. 


2010 had been a year of travelling for dear & me. We have been traveling almost every month! And that's really a lot. Though we travel to the neighboring countries, but to think of it, it's a lot of money...


Firstly, we went JB for umpteen times.. Though the spendings may not be a lot, but to think of it. If every trip i spend about $50, 10 trips will be $500. Definitely, i had been there about 10 trips this year. 


Other than JB, we went Batam twice & Melaka twice this year. 


Our spendings and accommodation could add up to a total of $300 per trip. Even though some trips are sponsored, i still think we took it for granted. :P


All these numerics are only per person average spendings, and i think i spend even more than that. :P I counted, if add up both of our spendings, its about $4.4K!!!!! GOSH! 


I mean, if we went BKK or Bali or Phuket, that figure may be worth it.. But......


Ok, we are still in the midst of planning of going KL end of Nov & a company retreat. :( 


Both of us made a commitment, starting in October, we are going to pledge 10% of our income for our future savings. It may not be a lot for me, but still, it does matter... 


Please dont jio me to any where else out of this red dot anymore. HAHA! 


No more buffets.. (alright, maybe once in a while :P) No more fine dinings etc... Everyday noodles! Ah! Just joking... HAHA! Ok, maybe lesser kois. HEHE! 


I need to SAVE!!!!! 

Been so long since i left my footprints here.. Wonder how many readers are still left in this spider web. :P 


Anyway, still, i will jot down some memories here. 


I'm so so so excited for October.. Yes, partly is my 19th Bday! Dear have been reminding me almost everyday for my big day. Really excited what he planned & prepared for me. 


I'm really thankful for Dear man! I've never been so excited for my bday before. It had always been "just-a-day", nothing special. Maybe just a cake and some good food cooked by my grandma or a dinner outside. But, now YOU have made my big day so big! :) I'm totally loved!


Another reason why i'm looking forward to October is that the verdict is going to be out. It will be a new start for all of us. And i guess, it's closer to the day we are separate from each other. I'm kinda looking towards a new start though :D 


October will also be a brand new month, things have to start afresh too! My term will also be starting October, another reason to rejoice in! The 2 modules are out, Principles of Marketing & Principles of Economics! I'm really looking forward to what i can learn from the modules! 


October will also be our 34month anniversary! Time flies. 


"There are 101 things to look forward to, what are your focus?" 

When i'm feeling down..

One of the things that i will do when i'm really frustrated  and venting out my anger, is "swallowing" soda water fast and quick. Be it coke, pepsi, f&n drinks, as long as its gassy, it will clear my anger. If you spot me doing that, beware & becareful...

Another thing i will do is drawing circles. I know some of you do this when you are bored :P When im really down, i draw til the whole paper turns another colour.

And of course, i will cry. I'm just a being. I've feelings and i do get hurt at times. I'm a lady, i'm sensitive and does feel insecure at times.

At times when i'm weak, He is strong. Goodbye, i will not cry to/for/at/in front of you. Forever goodbye!

I'll seek the Lord of my life.

God spoke. I'm gonna hold and stand strong believing. I'm not gonna let go and lose easily.

I would rather be a master's dog than a lost sheep.

I like what Jimmy said via twitter:
打狗要看主人！我是狗但我的主人是耶和华！

I'm a happy girl now! :)

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Heartaches

I think i've got to settle my heart a little bit. 


Things are coming back after rounds and rounds, eventually, "it" hasn't give up and came back. 


To me, God first, next family. 


It was really a huge disappointment for us. The 3 of us gave her a chance and she literally took it for granted. It will hurt our heart. The day before the court, i had a nightmare, i dreamt that she aborted her baby, and went back to her past. I remembered the dream vividly, it was so real, so real that i cried. 


I told God: "Lord, i pray with all my heart, mind and soul, she will change. Please give her another chance, please prove that she can do it. I pray that she will never go back to her past, for You are the future." 


Indeed, for the past few months, she finally displayed the love of a mom. All of us were getting along well and things went smoothly. We went for dinner, send her for check ups, went to visit my grandmom together. 


But i guess, our hearts turned into rocks towards her now. It really hurts so bad for us. Sometimes, when i think about that, tears flowed. 


Right now, she wanna play tricks with my dad and us. Oh well, God sees. 


I wanna continue to pray for her, for i know God loves her. I also wanna pray for my sisters and I. All of us know that its not easy, but when tough times come, its for the tough man/woman! We are going to come out strong. 


I thank God for my sisters and friends around us, always there to support and listen. Especially Dear, he dotes my sisters so much, behave like a big brother towards them. He is always there for us. 


I thank God for Holy Spirit. When i was in the Bible School, i remember Pst Ming always told us, Don't you forget to give thanks to Holy Spirit too. There are too many of us who always forgotten about the Holy Spirit, it's Him who give us the wisdom and reminders! 


Thank You God, J & Holy Spirit. The 3 pillars of my spiritual walk. 

September!

My friend, September has arrived into my soul! 

It's the most birthdays-month! Especially in my family. My daddy! Anwar! Labbit! 

The most exciting month in the calender! 

I'm so looking forward to go to Batam with dear and sisters on the 10th! I'm trying to slim down now so to makan more when i reach Batam! :) Oh... im drooling soon. ha

I *heart* September! *one more month to my bday!* 

Life is just so exciting with J with me! 

Selfish

Selfish peeps do exist. 


I'm growing tired of people who are selfish & self-centered. Their world only consist of themselves, always put themselves first before others. 


Pardon me, i'm really too mad about it. I'm not mad about the fact that selfish people exist around me, just the fact that they are so close to me. I see them almost everyday. 


How can they ever put themselves first in front of the people who are important to them or their close ones? Or should i say blood relation? 


Sighhhh.. This is getting too much. 


When i hope for a change in things, things always get worsen. :( 


I'm praying, praying for God's hands to be upon us. 

Drama Updates:

I've just completed watching 3 dramas!

All thanks to my iPhone! Whenever i'm waiting for someone, travelling, i will always seek my iphone and catch up with the dramas! All 3 of these are recommended to watch, all superbly duperbly good! 


Rookies' Diary is super funny! i'm still waiting for the complete set of drama though. It's definitely a must-watch comedy for all army boys. Hehehe. 


If you are looking for fast-streaming drama, go to http://sugoideas.com/! It's really good and fast, and good quality. :) 


Oh happy day!!~~ Have a great/awesome/joyful/happy/gladly day ahead!


XOXO!